what am i looking at?? often when people look at an image or some form of expression they say.. i don’t get it... what does it mean?.. it’s significance. i was dragged around as a child to museums often yawning and bored bc much of what i saw made no sense at all to me there was no context of understanding at such a young age....
so does this image looking at it..a glass.. outside so what....... but the day i shot it ... it meant a ton to me.. it represented a state i have been in for many months. and hence symbolic for me..
I’ve sort of been isolated bc of a diagnosis that led me into a fight for the past recent months and for some more ahead of me...... i felt singular .. one as i looked out into the public.. i am different. i feel different... I’m changed.. dont they see.. can’t they tell ..or is it only me who knows. sees .. can understand..
I’ve been fortunate.. very fortunate with intense gratitude to be buoyed , cushioned by so many friends.. and family.. who have held me/ lifted me up and prevented me from drowning....(water in the glass.) and me the one singular seed.floating.maintaining......yet solo feeling isolated.... and yet surrounded by .. the living. growing.. the green outside of me..the world.............. but feeling a bit contained, imprisoned... to do what i need to do... my journey inside the containment.... i.e. ... glass....
so as i lay in the chair on a beautiful spring day.. a bit weary.... trying to rest and enjoy the day ahead of me. i turn over to look at my glass. and this is what hits me right in the gut of my soul. camera always nearby.. it’s all i could shoot.. something so close to me.. so right there in my face.. seemingly a big fat nothing... to most..but for me a simplistic visual of how i felt
